Why I'm Afraid of Making YouTube Videos

Rita Mateus
May 5, 2025
3 min read

I've always been fascinated by creating videos, just like photography, and sharing what I think and feel with the world.

I’ve explored YouTube in the past, made a few videos, but they didn’t feel like me. I didn’t really know what to do or how to do it, so I deleted everything — the videos and the channel — and pretended it never happened.Maybe I was being a coward, and by now I could be a famous YouTuber haha, but I think it was more about fear and not seeing results early on.

So, in this blog post, I want to dig deeper into those fears.Whether it's about starting a YouTube channel or something else, I hope this text can be valuable for you too.

Fears

There’s always the fear of being made fun of, being judged by others, of what they’ll think and say. A photo is easier to control — it’s just one frame. Video is more complicated; there’s less control. Sure, we can cut here and there, but it’s not the same — there are multiple angles, constant movement.

“Does my hair look okay?”“Does this outfit suit me?”“Will they see all my imperfections?”...

And unlike photography, video has sound. It’s always been hard for me to hear my own voice in recordings or videos. It’s so different from looking in the mirror — in a video, you’re the main character. You notice your mannerisms, the little things you’re usually unaware of, the way you speak, express yourself.

I’ve also always loved singing, and at the end of last year I (finally) had the courage to take singing lessons (maybe I’ll write about that in another post). Even though I only stayed for a month — I was feeling a lot of pressure and I want music to be something I enjoy — I learned a lot about myself and grew from it. I became more confident and started to overcome some fear. If talking to strangers was already a challenge for me, imagine singing in front of one! One day, I’ll challenge myself and go to karaoke!

Perfectionism and imposter syndrome are so annoying — they block EVERYTHING. I want things to turn out well, but I’m also afraid of not being good enough or not adding any value.And when you lack experience, those feelings only grow stronger.

Cons of starting a YouTube channel

I could fail miserably;
People might judge or criticize too harshly (hate);
Insecurities (appearance, voice, worth);
No one might care about my videos.

Pros of starting a YouTube channel

I could grow and learn more about myself;
Build a community of people I relate to;
Improve my communication and gain confidence;
Gain soft and hard skills.

The now

I already have so many video ideas, camera, microphone, ring light, software, channel created… All that’s left is to actually start. No more excuses!

The future

It’s normal to be afraid — but to learn and grow, we have to begin! This post is a promise that I’ll give it a try and start posting videos.Starting from scratch is tough, but that’s not a reason to give up before even trying.

What about you?

Do you have a fear that’s stopping you from doing something you really want? Share it with me in the comments or send me a message — I love knowing I’m not alone in these inner battles. 💬💛

And if you’re also thinking of creating a channel, send me the link! We can support each other on this journey into the unknown. 🎥✨